ANGER


During my grief journey, I became so angry about the circumstances, that the anger felt like a solid rock was residing inside of me.  This rock was gigantic and felt like it was going to be there to stay.  I wasn’t used to feeling angry, but I was so outraged by my grief.  Why? No answer.  Why?  Silence.  Why?  Nothing.  It’s so frustrating living with unanswered questions that have no answers.  It’s even more disheartening living in anger.  This is NOT who I am!  I am not an angry person, yet I find myself living inside my anger.  It won’t go away.  It rears its ugly head to anyone who is near me.  One day I decided to face my anger head on.  I saw it.  I embraced it.  I allowed it to be in me.  And then…I decided, with God’s help, to let it go.  Go away anger!  Anger was not me, even though it resided inside of me.  Anger overshadowed me.  So I made the decision to let it go.  This letting go freed my soul.  This letting go freed my spirit.  I felt myself again.  I am grateful for anger because it moved through me and allowed me to vent and prepare for the next phase in the grief journey.   I realized God was always there, God was the rock inside of me, my fortress in ever present danger (anger)...and then, God helped me let anger go.

The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. 

Psalm 18-1

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